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Monday, September 18, 2006

10:44PM - Life

Life changes from day to day, we seem to have no control over it and we certainly cannot try to control it! The more we try to control it, the more out of control it gets lol. Some people say, just surrender, believe in a higher power and let it guide you. I have been feeling very phylisophical the past week or so. Maybe it is because Lee's brother died last saturday, september 16th and death makes you start thinking about life. What have we really contributed to life, to society, to the world? How will we be remembered? What is our purpose?
I think my biggest, most important contribution to life was my children. I love them and loved growing up with them. You see everything new again, through their eyes. Now they are pretty much grown up and on their own, I feel at a loss, don't know what to do with myself and have lost my purpose in life. I guess your kids always need you but I have needs too. Am feeling drained lol, will continue this tomorrow.

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Monday, September 11, 2006

1:41AM - hmm, the past week

It has been a good and yet rough past week. I started back working part time last week, actually 2 weeks ago, which has been pretty good. Am not used to the long hours though. It has also been a bit of a chore to walk there and/or back although it is only a few blocks. I am just really out of shape lol.
I had to do my one day course yesterday for my impaired driving charge, which, again, was good, but felt really long. Am glad it is over with.
Lee's brother has been here for 3 days which again, has been alright, but a little stressful. Now, I have two men to pick up after lol. Also, Lee was looking to move out and I am afraid this will delay him. He did say tonight that he would be out by next week. Woo hoo! It has been a long time coming and overdue. We cannot live together, we get on each other's nerves lol.
I have just felt so tired lately. I also got my period on Friday, which was only 18 days since my last one, which is also very tiring.

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Sunday, September 3, 2006

4:35PM - Back to Work

Well, i started back to work part time last week with my sister. So far, so good. It is nice to get out of the house again and talk with people. Most of the customers remembered me and were talkative. It won't make me a lot of money but at least will be steady income, unlike my bookkeeping which has been really slow this summer. I need to call and get my customers
to move their butts. lol.
Have not been doing much on the dating scene lately. Met with 2 guys and was not too thrilled with it. Another guy, I am trying to blow off, but he is not getting the hint lol. So, only 1 i still really chat with. He seems more like a buddy and only lives a few doors from work. I can see us getting together at some point.
Right now, I just want to concentrate on work and getting my apartment back to myself lol.

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